I was able to complete something in a few hours that i had without being ill and in pain. the short amount of time was the key, i guess…
and this is on my profile, but still, this is important -
Hello folks. Everyone. Been a while.
I wanted to apologize to those who have taken the time to comment on my works… I am truly, deeply sorry and feel like a right bastard artist and entirely unworthy. Though I don’t call myself an artist anymore, well very rarely. because I cannot work.
I am presently very sick with chronic neuropathic pain. I have also the affliction entitled ‘chronic bipolar disorder type one.’ Formerly known as manic depression.
the pain has stopped me from working, for many months at a time. I have produced less work… ah hell… 60 works are now six. stopped me cold.
my fiancé is not only exquisite but she has been taking care of me with such love that it is impossible to describe. I began to suffer from the pain just after we met. I mean, she’s HOT, it’s not like she didn’t have a choice!! The pieces “the dance”, “affianced”, and “sinn” (her name) are of her. it is hard to believe that the three years we have been together have resulted in only these works being inspired by her ….squeezed from my sore little fingers.
she is also cheeky, but responds well to a disciplinary smack.
(actually I think she could prolly kick my ass. and she’s 5 feet tall.)
I am going in for ECT in February. acronymically, that means electro-convulsive-therapy. or shock treatment. from my researches, though this will cost me memory, and I am so so damned scared of it, it should work. I cannot imagine being without pain.
Thank you once more for your comments, favouring of my work and such things. anyone who receives anything like that knows how much it means. more perhaps, to me right now than to most.
Pastel on paper